i wish i had some sort of vidding type skill so i could make myself a file that is just all the musical numbers from glee. some of the plot is rly annoying but the musical numbers almost always make me happy and i just want to watch them all in a row.

I have thoughts about life and mental health and tv and shit but I am having trouble putting everything into words so instead I will leave you with this:

Art Does Not Excuse Rape: Polanski Must Face Justice

I have so much rage about this entire situation and I know that an internet petition isn't going to solve anything, but I want there to be SOMETHING standing against the millions of celebs signing their names to free him or w/e.

Lately some of the people in my life, and some of the people on television have been inspiring a fair amount of rage on my part when they try to address chronic mental illness.

It is increasingly clear that people who have never suffered from mental illness just fucking don’t get it.

So I’m writing this out of frustration but also in the hope that someone will read this and understand a little better what the mentally ill people in their lives are dealing with. This entry is not the most linear thing I’ve ever written. I’m tired. I’m angry. I’m crazy, but I think it makes sense.

Obviously I can’t speak for everyone with a chronic mental illness. These are my experiences I’m talking about, but sometimes I speak in generalizations because I do believe there are some fairly common experiences. If you have a chronic mental illness and would like to add your perspective in comments feel free. Anon commenting is on (so you don't need to have a DW account to comment), IP logging is off (eta, i thought it was off but it was actually on. NOW it is off). Clicking the cut will take you to my DW entry because I’d like to keep all my comments in one place for this one.

Feel free to link wherever.

(This is what a crazy person looks like)

Shit y'all tonight was a big night for TV. (Is it sad that I signed up at on-my.tv to keep track of what I need to be downloading when?)

( how i met your mother 5x01 )

( greek 3x04 )

love meme it's sort of embarrassing how much I could use this right now.

( glee 1x02 warning squee harshing )

ps i need some other icon to express fail because my cash icon makes me sad now. :(

Sometimes I want to re-up my lj account for more icon space so that my greek icons transfer across from dw. not that i have that many. get on the icons greek fandom. otherwise i might have to make some and that way lies badness.

Anyway. Greek!

( spoilers for 3x02 )

seattle peeps, does anyone want to come see freezepop with me tomorrow at el corazon?

This is one of the many reasons I love loveyouallwrong so much. So many pretty pictures of the folks from Greek *___*

la_tempete I believe this is relevant to your new interests.

Hey you know what sucks a lot? Misogyny. I am so fucking sick of men deciding they can define women's experiences of their own goddamn sexuality. I am sick of people disregarding my opinions because I am a woman and I am sick of people feeling like it's okay to set up environments where women don't feel welcome to participate.

This entry brought to you by that dumbass fandom survey and my new boss (who I really hope gets better) and also by one of my roommates who is generally on top of his shit but who told me i was overreacting today (which i hate more than i can adequately express in words).

eta: i must say, however, that reading the beautiful beautiful smackdowns in various posts by those researchers is incredibly happymaking.

I THINK IT IS IMPORTANT THAT EVERYONE UNDERSTAND THAN CALVIN/HEATH < CALVIN/GRANT EVEN THOUGH HEATH > GRANT

(this is probably kind of obvious but there are spoilers for last night's ep in the comments)

YOU GUYS YOU GUYS! GREEK PREMIERED TONIGHT!

( spoilers for 3x01 obvs )

Things that suck:

- Cash leaving the Cab. I love the Cab, I love seeing them live, I love their album and EPs, I love all the awesome people I have met because of them. And I fucking love Cash. I love his special brand of fail and those terrible tattoos and his little bass dance. I'm really sad about this (especially since all signs point to a fight between Cash and Singer being a catalyst - it's the Cash and Alex Band :((((((((( ). DNW acrimony in this breakup. I don't think I have that many cab!wives in my circle or on my flist but bbs I love you all. I really truly want the best for all current and former members of the Cab and I am really sad that he left.

- People feeling like they have to choose sides in the Panic split. It is completely possible to be on team Panic! and team TYV. I am really really sick of people vilifying Ryan and/or Jon. Yeah, they aren't being the classy hotasses that Brendon and Spencer are, but I genuinely believe the "it was musical differences" explanation for the split and I don't think it's necessary to make anybody the bad guy.

- The name The Young Veins. Really Ryro and Jon. Really? I think they will forever be TYV in my head.


Things that don't suck:

- The new Cobra Starship album. The more I listen the more I like it. It's not as good as Viva but at least there is nothing as problematic as the VIP part of Scandalous.

- New Perspective and Change

- How hotass Brendon and Spencer are being lately.

- wentzed_dale I want everyone to write in this universe.

So it turns out that listening to new panic just makes me sad. Like really really sad. I really liked fever but it took me four or five listens before I liked it much at all. I LOVED pretty. odd. beyond what is sensible in the world. Some of those songs are the songs of my heart. And new panic will not be making music like that. And I doubt that Jon and Ryan will pull that shit together on their own, even with help from Alex Greenwald and whoever else.

Maybe when I'm more over the split I'll like the music better. I don't know. I'm just sad.

And hey there's also ( torchwood 3x05 spoilers )

I am not feeling so good fannishly right now. And it's coming on the heels of feeling really fannishly AWFUL. So my happy place is not that happy.

At least rl is going pretty well.

( torchwood 3x04 spoilers )

brb finding everyone's posts about this to talk in.

this needed a separate post because I don't want to dirty my panic grief post.

ATL CAN SUCK NINE DICKS

I did not think I could hate them more after their super super SUPER creepy stage show. But their new video pretty much proves that you can always go lower. Shockingly ATL it is possible to have a vagina and have a personality and value outside of that vagina. Also no one is forcing you to sleep with fans. If they are sluts for fucking you, what are you for fucking them?

I agree with Imp. I would fuck Trace Cyrus before I fucked anyone in ATL.

I had to walk away from this post because of all the bad opinions. I will say however that there are also some awesome opinions.

Okay. I am not even going to pretend that I didn't tear up at work today when I read Ryan and Jon's official message. I totally did. I'm not going to pretend I'm not sad. Because I am.

I am really really happy that Ryan and Jon are making the choices that are best for them musically. I choose to believe that they are parting on good terms. I'm excited to see what's coming next.

But I'm sad, because Panic brought me into bandom and that Panic will never exist. I was listening to Pretty. Odd. on the way home from work (SUCH a mistake. I carpool.) and I totally started crying listening to Northern Downpour. They all talk about that song as being so collaborative. That won't exist again.

I LOVE Pretty. Odd. and I'm sad that Spencer and Brendon will be moving back toward Fever's sound. And I'm sad for a Panic without ridiculous Ryan Rossy lyrics about sheepish wolves eating buttons or birds and maps and sleeping in the rain.

I'm also really sad at how many people are talking about this like it's the end of bandom. I've been feeling fannishly distant lately (in large part because the warning wank makes me feel icky about fandom in general) but I am NOT done with Bandom. I have been in a lot of fandoms with dead or dying canon and it has never stopped me before.

I wish people weren't locking their fic or their ljs.

I love you all and I hope you stick around.

I'm sad. But hopeful? IDK.

A few things as warning wank (hopefully) dies down.

1) If you genuinely believe that a discussion about warnings about rape on fanfic designed to prevent people from being triggered is the same as a wank about haircut warnings you either have an incredibly skewed perspective on reality or you are not truly paying attention the current conversation.

2) If you do not understand that no one is claiming that writers have more privilege than readers but are rather arguing that people who do not have triggers are more privileged than people with triggers you are being deliberately obtuse.

3) If you think that survivors of sexual violence who have triggers should just avoid all fic with no warnings listed then you are fundamentally misunderstanding the fact that most fics in fandom without warnings are warning free BECAUSE THERE IS NOTHING TO WARN FOR. And you are essentially asking to survivors to remove themselves from the majority of fandom. And that is incredibly fucked up.

4) If you think any of the major players in this wank are asking for you to warn for every possible trigger in the goddamn world I question your reading comprehension.

5) If you think that ANYONE in this wank is fabricating their sexual assault to start drama or to gain the upper hand in the argument I'd prefer not to know you.

So we've gotten to the point in this wank where people I really respect are saying things that are really really hurtful and offensive. And I spent some time being really really angry. And my roommate walked in when I was all caps typing about how I wanted to kill people with fire. And my roommates let me tl;dr at them about all of this and then they distracted me with endless conversation about my cat.

And now I want to take a picture out of strobelighted's book and post pictures of my cat.

I have a longhaired cat who gets overwhelmed by her own hair sometimes, especially in the summer, so about once a year I take her in and get her shaved. Today was shaving day.

( here are some pictures of my cat looking kind of ridiculous post shave )